One little bird

close up 3 big birds by kelly credit
close up 3 big birds, a photo by kelly credit on Flickr.

I love this scrappy new bird. She’s one of three, all lined up in a row on a faded, repurposed, vintage quilt. My favorite is the tweed layer on her wing. I loved the way it looked on my design wall but I wasn’t sure how tweed would be to work with.  Since I do all my applique with hand stitching it worked just fine.  I doubt I could have pulled it off with a machine.

It’s been a long time since I posted on here.  I got all excited about starting this blog over a year ago. I had taken Kelly Rae Roberts OUTSTANDING Flying Lessons E-course and was all inspired and I felt gutsy.  I printed out the .pdf she so generously shared with us, put it in a binder and spent summer 2011 studying it and taking notes and writing down my dreams. I wrote my dreams in detail; I love doing that.  Then, I took the first step and started this blog and joined the flying lessons Facebook group for community.  Go me!

And then I got scared. I felt silly. I felt like I wasn’t as talented and courageous as the other people who took the E-course and were also starting their blogs. I even, like a dummy, “un friended” my membership in the incredible Flying Lessons Facebook group.  I’m very “all or nothing” aren’t I?  I was all in, and then just as abruptly I was all out.  Bad me!

It was easy for me to talk myself out of maintaining this blog, out of making my art, out of selling on Etsy, out of entering shows. It was easy because I have an awesome day job that I really love.  It’s fun for me, challenging, sort of prestigious, and provides a comfortable salary. So I can always ditch my dream by using the ole “I’m way too busy at work” lie on myself.

But now, I’m going for it. I’m determined to not use that easy lie this time. It might take a long time and I might even fail. Actually, its highly likely I’ll fail. Yet I’m excited! I’ll share more in my next post.